Ch-Ch-Ch-Changes!

Ok, so I know I've been talking about a lot of new things without much explanation. Since I have the afternoon off, I thought I'd try and catch you all up a little.

First, rather than going home to New Jersey next semester, I have decided to stay in Ohio for six more months. Why? Am I not graduating? No, I'm still graduating in about two weeks {ohmygoodness,ohmygoodness!}, but I realized during the last few weeks of "Into the Woods" that I wasn't quite ready to close the books on my theatre involvement, and maybe I never would be. I decided to take another acting class at MU in the spring, as well as still take some prerequisites for nursing school. After you get one degree from MU, they let you take any other undergrad classes for half-price tuition, so that helps.

I'm going to be moving into a house right across the street from campus. I love living with the "almost-in-laws", but they live about half an hour north from MU, and the commute is a drag after a while. I'm in the process of figuring out different projects for the theatre to do, which might possible include directing a full length play.  I would be so excited it I could do that, but I'm still waiting to see if the program has enough moneh's to fund my ideas. So all of that has yet to be seen, but it will all work out, I'm sure.

I've also been thinking that, before I go and apply to nursing school, I'd apply to grad school. For acting, of course. There's a pretty good program located about an hour from my parent's house and Mr. T's that's not too far from NYC, either. Its a three year deal, but I sort of have no idea what else to do, and I'm sure I would love spending three years acting and learning how to be better at doing it. Thing is, I have to have my application in and audition set up by January 15, which is little over a month away. I'm nervous about applying, because I'm scared I'll be rejected (it's quite a possibility), but I can't let that stop me anymore. If I don't get in, I'm still on track to try to go to nursing school.

Let's see, what else is there.... I really don't know.  So basically, I'm staying in Ohio to pursue my artistic dreams and work on getting into grad school. I don't really know what comes next after that, but I'll figure it out as I go along.

Now you know what all the hullaballoo has been about :-) Mr. T is OK with me staying. We'll still miss each other, but he wants me to do what I need to do and I plan on being back near him after next semester for quite a while.

Week 13

I hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving and had a good time fighting the crowds for great deals this weekend.

It was a crazy week for me. I got home late-ish Tuesday night. Wednesday was spent running errands, doing laundry, and getting my car inspected. Jersey makes you get your car inspected every two years for a whole battery of things, several of which mine didn't pass, which put me in an awful mood. The pumpkin pies I baked didn't want to bake through, and Mr. T slept through dinner, only making my mood worse.

All of this, combined with the things I'd been thinking about lately and changes that are coming up (like graduation, etc), culminated in a very unhappy conversation between Mr. T and me. We ended up not spending Thanksgiving together and not seeing each other until Saturday night. It was then that we worked everything out. Everything is going to be alright now.

I worked over Black Friday...yikes! I was in at work before 5am and didn't stop until 2pm. My goodness, the things people do are really ridiculous.  Several little girls stood in line for a very long time just to buy one lip gloss. Call me crazy, but I like to make a habit of staying home on Black Friday because of the masses of people, and standing in a huge long line for one stinkin' thing that I could get any other day of the year.

Ok, this post sucks. I'm over it. I'll post again sometime this week, I promise.

Turns Out, I'm the Villain in My Own Story

I feel like I haven't blogged in forever, when, in reality, its only been a few days.

Some things happened tonight. Something that I thought I really wanted and needed. Turns out, rather than a weight being lifted from my chest and everything becoming clearer, I feel terrible.

Its so hard to stop crying. Especially when you've caught a glimpse of tears that you've caused.

Its not ok. I'm not ok. He's not ok, even though he says he is.

Why couldn't he be an asshole, so I felt like less of one?

I think I'm going to take a break from here for a little while. At least until my head clears {any minute now}.

Week 12

Do I really have only three weeks left? And finals, of course.

This week has been ka-razy! My parents left last Sunday after church and lunch at Subway. We had a really great visit, actually. They took my news about staying in Ohio really well and are pretty supportive of it, actually. I'm still in the process of finding roommates and a place to live, but other than that, things are mostly in place. I'm hoping that I can leave some of my things in Ohio over Christmas break so that I have less to lug back here afterwords.

I am so behind on homework from this week. Even though I had most of Sunday and Monday nights off, I just sort of sat around, stunned that a 100 mph pace wasn't being required of me and got no homework done.

Performances this week went well. No more uber-drama like last week, thank goodness. I can't say that I got much sleep, though...

Thursday night, I saw New Moon with several friends. We ended up sitting in the very front row (ugh!) and having a sore neck about halfway through, but really enjoyed the movie. They definitely played up the werewolves shirtlessness. New Moon was my least favorite Twilight book, since there is little Edward in it, but I still really liked the movie. I'll probably go again, even! Ha! I didn't get home till 4am, but it was worth it.

Friday, we had our cast party, which started at 11:30pm, after our show ended. It was sooo nice to hang out in the hot tub after a long two weeks of performances. Then we all watched (and sang) Rent. I love that movie so much! Some of us are looking to put together a showcase for next semester that may include one or more songs from Rent! The cast party turned into another 4am bedtime, which was bad because I had to be at work at 6:45am. Yuk! One and a half hours of sleep later, I was dragging myself to work, then back home, then off to the show. I think I only made it through because of the 6 shots of espresso I had on my way to the performance.

Our last show was so bittersweet. It was one of my friends last show, since she's going to be studying abroad in Ireland for the last semester of her senior year in the spring.  It would have been my last show too. That thought is unbearable, really, and part of the reason I'm staying here for just a bit more than previously expected. Any of you who have ever been part of a cast know that you're a family by the end of the show's run. This show's cast didn't pull together until later in the rehearsal process, but when we did, we were a force to be reckoned with. I'm going to miss almost everyone so much. Monday we meet to watch the recording of the show and say goodbye. I'm going to cry, I just know it.

Well, enough of that, I'm off to make up some homework and do some Biggest Loser Yoga.

New Moon

I have to admit, I am a Twilight fan. A "Team Edward" fan, if you will. I don't think any movie can measure up to its literary predecessor, but I go see them anyways.

I hadn't planned on seeing New Moon on opening night, but last night, Flo. mentioned that she and her boyfriend were going to go, but something came up, so they had two extra tickets. Let's see, I'm not doing anything at 12:04 am the night Twilight comes out, so why don't I go?

My friend Dorian and I were going to go see it together eventually, so we just snatched up the ones for tonight and will be on our way as soon as we can get out of costume after tonight's show!

I'm shocked at how excited I am!